Since the year and a half since I’ve divorced, I have dated. A LOT.
A few connections here and there, but, nothing to go the distance. And then I met “him.” Well, I thought it was him, and it may be him, but it may also be a symptom of my readiness… which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but perhaps not “the one.” Or maybe he is. Or perhaps he is the one before the one.
I’m laughing as I write at the ridiculousness, but, honestly this is a pretty fair report of the emotional roller coaster I was on…
The not so funny part of this fear-based uncertainty is that it goes against my values.
I have a profound belief that whoever my man is, he is coming to me absolutely as fast as he can. And, at the perfect moment and in the ideal way, our relationship will unfold.
This knowing sets my soul at ease and gives my spirit a lift. It’s good in theory and even stronger in practice. Unfortunately, the peace that this perspective would normally give, seemingly escaped me for a time.
As I float back to sanity I credit a few things.
1. Conversation and laughter with loved ones. I am in the middle of a three week trip to Europe connecting with family and friends. There is something about being around the history of my life day in and day out that softens me and opens me to all the goodness that abounds. No better way to reconnect and remember who I am.
2. Plenty of rest. All the days on my trip are roughly the same; waking, breakfast, activity, lunch, napping, eating, activity, bedtime. In fact, today was a rainy day with no “activities.” o, A day of; Eat. Read. Nap. Repeat. An amazing way to recharge and remember who I am.
3. Feeding the mind and spirit with information that will help you go in the direction you desire. As I noted in #2, I have had the luxury of time to read. I’m already on my third book in ten days and the one I began yesterday – “Ask and It Is Given” — is perhaps, one of the most phenomenal pieces of literature on learning how to receive your hearts desires. It literally provides step by step instructions on how to feel good. While “feeling good” is seemingly basic, the authors more importantly illustrate the vital relationship between feeling good, thinking in the positive and creating a happy life and conversely how feeling unhappy and thinking about what you don’t want can cause a stressed, negative, disappointing existence.
One of my favorite passages is; “Whatever you are thinking about is like planning a future event. When you are appreciating you are planning. When you are worrying, you are planning. (Worrying is using your imagination to create something you do not want.)” So true!
You know how sometimes you can read something and it doesn’t resonate, and then years later you reread it and it blows your mind?! That’s what happened... a real game changer. What a relief to remember all of the goodness already within you. Sometimes, it is as simple as reading a book and making a few changes or shifting your thinking. And remember you are not in this alone!
So… back to “him.” My man IS on his way. I can feel it, I believe it and have remembered the importance of doing whatever I need to do to hold that knowing. This is the BEST reality to live in. One of my making, simply for the asking… that is lovingly handed to me by the powers that be.
All I need to do, in one form or another, is remember who I am intended to be. Happy.
I will be sure to keep you up-to-date with my man progress, and of course, I am grateful that we are on this path together and look forward to hearing what you think about the book, or answering any questions you have...
I am definitely in your corner!